MOOD..dimana kau ilang..DELETE FRIEND..bla..bla..bla

*gile babeng puye tade mood arini..
bodoh..bangang..tonggong..
ape hal la ade je nak carik gadoh..buat hal..ishhh.

*Nothing to share and no emotion.
Simple acquaintances, but how?
When so much passed between us
Why is this happening now?

Strangers together and strangers apart.
I look at you now and I have no clue.
Of all the moments we spent together
What happened to me and you?
I thought that I knew you
But now I'm not sure
You used to be friendly
But not anymore
Sometimes things must happen
And friends drift away
I wish it weren't us
I wish not this way.


*thx 4 your first shoot.. ;(

SWEET LIES..

11.10pm

ishhhh..
betol ke ape yg aku dengar dan aku nampak tadi??
tapi kalu betul pon, nape aku nak rase ape2 kan..
pasal aku kawan je ngn die..
ishhhh..tapi tak kesah la sape aku ni pade die dan sape die pade aku..
yg penting skg, aku rase ntah laa..rase cam tertipu pon ade gak..
pasal die penah ngaku yg die tade girlfren..blom kawen..tapi gamba tu? gamba kawen tu bai..
heh..bia betik mamat ni..adoyaii..ni yg aku malas ni..
PERSAHABATAN TANPE KEJUJURAN la namenye ni..
aishhh,..ntah la..
maybe die ade sebab tak bagitau betol2 kot..
yelah, aku ngn die pon baru je kawan..
haa..tanak la dgr suare2 yang cube nak cucuk2 aku ni..
wa tanak campur laa..
yang penting aku kwn ngn die utk blaja..
fullstop..da tu lantak die la nak wat ape pon..
baik aku terus setia dgn prinsip idop aku..MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS..
ehh..tapi aku ni cepat sgt dgr cite2 org ni..tu yg payah..
aku takot gak..kang tak pasal2 aku kene tiaw ngn bini die..
tak ke mampos?? perghhh..tak sanggup aku de...
gulp..perghhh..gilee..gilee.
tak paham ler aku..ishh..ishh

mee sizzling YULK!

sunday
9.37pm

waaaa..da bape ari tak update blog..
ni sume gare2 tido tak hengat dunie nih..
perghhh..arini baru la idup secare normal..haha
pasal tak oversleep mcm smalam..huhuhu
baru je balik dr shoot kat taman botani with family...
snap gamba budak 3 org yg shomel tuh..anda, eam and sara..
skejap lagi nak upload dlm facebook..heeeee
lepas balik dr taman botani kakngah terus gerak pegi taman warisan pertanian pulak..
abg zaini ade job kat sane..plus kak ngah ckp kat sane pon ade great place to shoot..
but then tak dapat nak masuk coz da pukul 6..
next time maybe.. so kat sane just makan2 jela..
n jalan2 kat bazar yg ade kat situ..
ckp pasal mkn....euwwwwwww..da start rase nak muntah..ishhh, sume sbb gare2 makan mee sizzling yang ntah hape2 tuh..yulk!! rase die..grosssssss..hanyir..euwwwwww..kembang tekak wei..dr lapar trus rase tak lapar..
ohhh..baru tringat..tripod guwe tinggal dlm kete kak ngah..adeeeiii..lupe nak kuarkan tadi..hmmm..careless sungguh la..haiyoo!

missing HIM

I can’t never really tell you why
I’ve been missing you a lot
And I just have to take another look
Of your photo in my wallet
And there’s no reason why
I keep your t-shirt by my side when i sleep
Pretending you were never really gone
It’s like a missing star
That’s always been up in your sky
It’s like the rainbow never comes after the rain
It’s like the sun never rises in every of your mornings
How am I suppose to live without those things
There are all you..

6.18pm

im sitting here..
write in my blog..
monday evening..
got stuck at the taffic jam,
feeling hot in the car..
waaaaa..heaven gile tak payah rase camtuh..
best part is tido lame2 on monday morning...gile besh..
today im off~~ heeeee..
its been 4 hour im seating here n online..hahaha
upload gamba kat broga hill pulak..
excited nak upload..heeee
oooppsss..da nak ujan..
angkat baju dulu laa..
huuuuuu..

LEPAS GERAM~~

sunday
8.54pm


last saturday is my last paper for mid term exam...
pheuwwww..at last..abes gak exam..
punye laa serabut..how was the exam??
argghhh,,malas nak ckp..mmg ntah ape2 je aku jwb..lantak situ..
da la tak bace ape2..soalan pon sikit la punye haram jadah..
tawakal je la..haha..
pas abes je last paper ari sabtu tu, petang tu terus gi shoot hot balloon kat putrajaya..nak lepas tension punye pasal..punye la gian nak shoot..hahaha..besh2..
event tuh mmg best..happening..dpt tgk photographer yg pro2..yg paling besh tgk gadget depa..perghhh..lens masing2 muncung kedepan jer..aku rase nak sorok je camera aku tuh..hahahaha..dengan manusie yg gile ramai plus dgn equipment yg tak bape proper, tak dapat shoot balloon yg besh pon..ade la dpt skeping due yg ok kot..tape la..at least ade experience pi shoot hot balloon.. ;)
tak stay sampai mlm..so tak dapat lak shoot balloon tu time mlm..coz dorang ckp nanti belon tu akan kuar lampu ikut music beat..mcm best je kan..then ade petunjukan muge api..waa.gempak jer bunyik..kila n caca nak balik awal coz bf masing2 da bingit2 ngn dorang..mane tak nye dari ptg call tak dpt2..ni sume pasal kes tade line..haha..layan jela labu..nak kuar pun susah..nak kene repot2 bagai..kikiki..dulu pon aku pnh kene camtuh..klaka pon ade gak..aduyai..sengal btol..
otw balik anta kila apis text ajak teman pi anta member die pi kl sentral..so drop keta kat petronas sg merab jap..

BROGA HILL..
smalam syakir tpon ajak pi broga hill..nak shoot..
gile ke?? mesti laa aku nak pegii..
dgn pantas aku ckp nak ikut..hahaha..gile gelabah..
awal2 pg around 4.15 jemm da tpon..
perghhh..nasib jemm tepon kalau tak cmfirm aku tak bangun..lupe kunci alarm daaa..
dgn pantas pi siap2..cisss..alamak, mane ntah pegi suar track aku ni..time2 camni la tak jumpe..mane mak letak ni?? carik punye carik tade gak..short pant banyak laa..takkan nak naik bukit broga pakai short..mampos kene bebel ngn apis ni kang..
ahhh..pkai jeans suda..pedulik laaa..tu je ade..janji suar panjang kan..huhuhuhu..
amik jem pastu pi amik apis kat umah..
grak pi mc kajang jumpe member syakir..
perghhh..bapak ramai..ingat berape org jer..
pastu yg peginye pompuan2 gedik..perghhh..layan jela..
sampai broga dalam kol 6 camtuh kot...
malas nak tunggu gegurl tuh sume, aku apis ngn jem naik atas dulu..kang sudahnye tak dpt shoot sunrise laa kalu nak tunggu depa sume tuh..
semput gak ar nak sampai atas tuh..jem kat balakang da tolak2 soh naik gak..terpakse la jalan..rehat pon kejap2 je..pasal apis ckp kene sampai atas sbelom headlamp die abes bateri..gile ke nak jalan tgh2 gelap..so, terpakse la jalan laju sikit..
at last!! after 25min jalan sampai gak atas..(perghh pecah rekod kot..pasal dorang ckp nak naik take 45min camtu) tros bukak tripod n setting camera.
beshhh gile wehhh..sejuk kat atas ni..mcm kat genting...besh..besh..tak rugi penat2 naik atas ni..patot la punye ramai org naik atas ni..view die bole tahan lawa doooo..
tunggu punye tunggu punye tunggu tade pon sunrise..laa..malu2 pulak die nak kuar..
hmmm..tade luck la dis time..agak kecewa la sikit..tp nak buat camne kan..better luck next time maybe..so, shot jela gamba bebudak ni..heeeee..janji shoot..hahaha..
BROGA, i will come again!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehuuuu.. ;)

Perubahan Hormon~

9.18pm


im not feeling gud..
PERIOD CRAMP!!
tak suke..tak suke..
mule laa sakit pinggang..sakit perut..loya2..
dah 2 bijik panadol kaler pink tu aku telan..tp still lagi sakit perut ni..
at last telan postan..last2 tetido sampai pukul 8.30 tadi..haha
nape la teruk sgt kan..
nasib baik cuti..kalau kat opis ni, da sah2 half day..
so bole la buat aktiviti berguling2 atas katil sambil tahan sakit.. heeee
mcm biase la kalau da dtg sakit sebulan skali ni mule la nak marah2..
sikit2 sentap..hmm, so then bile da mcm ni mule la da malas nak buat ape2..
bace buku pun tak..dasar PEMALAS TEGAR betol la aku ni..ishh..ishh..

melawat Flickr WAN ;)

waaaaa..
cantik laa gamba2 die
bile kite nak jadik terer mcm die eh??
tu..wall pic kat blog ni pun die yg edit..
cantik kan..heeeeee~~



p/s: wan, i curik gamba u..jgn marah.. :D

langit jingga

9.30pm
my room

dear bloggy..
suasane agak bosan rite now..balik umah tadi tade sape kat umaa
tak tau laa depa sume pi mane..
maybe my mom kuar ngn kak ngah kot...
mai pon da sebok keje..sunyinye... ;(
rite now sedang mencarik mood utk stat sambung asgment dasar fiskal yg tertunda smalam..haha..i need 12page some more..aiyakk! ape lagi yg aku nak mengarut neh..haha..
LANGIT JINGGA.. waaaa..title nak boom jer kan.. ;)
pagi tadi on the way gi office, mcm biase laa ikut MRR2..seawal pagi da kuar umah..around 6.50am (gile awal) da kuar umah..dis is my daily routine sejak keje kat zetro..nak buat cane kang kua lambat cmfirm la jem.. mase ngah drive (tak laju pon..70km/j saje) aku nampak view yg sgt laaa cantik di depan mate...waaaaaaaaaaa langit tuh..kaler oren..cantik..cantik..cantik giler...mate aku tak berkelip kejap tgk view tu n perkare petame yg terlintas kat kpale ialah camera! so, ape lg..dgn spantas kilat aku seluk enset dlm beg n bawak keluar..then tros snap! snap! ahaaaa..kete blakang aku mesti bengang pasal aku bwk kete slow tp dok lane tengah..kikiki..sorry~~ emm..tapi tak dapat nak capture view yg perfect coz dgn keadaan aku yg tgh drive n agak shaking..so, final imej yg terbentuk tak bape clear..tapi sumpah! view langit oren tuh mmg lawa...sampai ternganga gak la aku menengoknye.. ;)

ELIMINATED!!

10.40PM
my room
depan lappy
m&m didalam mulut ;)


mase ngah sebok dan khusyuk gile menaip asgment dasar fiskal tadi..tetibe music playlist yg aku dengar tgh play lagu bukan kasihku..kaer..perghhhh..giler taching okeh....haaa...haaa..mule la tuh nak taching2..adeeeiii..tak sanggop aku..
tapi..aku tanak tipu diri sndrik..i do miss him...gile2 rindu..walaupun hampir semua gamba2 dan barang2 yg ade kene mengene ngn die da habis aku buang..tapi kenangan tentang die takkan boleh aku buang macam tu jer..da 2 bulan lbey da..hmm..tipu laa kalau aku ckp tak ingat kat die..sakit memang sakit..tapi perasaan ni dtg bukan aku mintak..aku sedar aku dan die mungkin takkan bersatu lagi..hmm..da la..terlalu banyak bende pahit yg akan buat aku teringat balik kat die..ape2 pon, aku akan cube maafkan salah2 yg die penah buat kat aku..aku harap aku kuat hadapi sume ni..aku tanak da buat bende2 bodo dan tak berpekdah yg macm aku buat sbelom ni..sebab bende tu sume tunjukkan kelemahan aku kat die..dan semestinye die tak layak untuk rase aku sakiti diri sendiri semate2 kerane die..kawan2 aku ckp, da laa, carik je orang lain..hahahahaha..korang gile ke ape...aku bukan senang2 nak jatuh cinte..nak ade feeling2 ni..susah bai..biarlah..aku senang begini..single mingle,couple trouble..haha..untuk muiz, thx utk memori manis, pahit,payau,masam,masin slame hampir 7 tahun kite bersame..ehhhh..ape kau ingat kau hensem sgt ker?? bole blah la wehh..hensem lagik kot orlando bloom aku tuh..kikiki..walaupun memang aku rase nak bunuh kau atas ape yg kau da buat kat aku, aku harap aku dpt maafkan kau..sbb dgn membenci kau, aku takkan bahagie.. well MUIZ, you are eliminated! thank you!

L.O.V.E is about forgiveness..

1.37pm
office

Love is beautiful, Love is unconditional, Love is trust, Love is understanding, Love is loyal, Love is missing each other, Love is sharing, Love is sacrificing and Love is happiness. Is this what love is all about? Love is just 4 letter words that play us hard. Some said true love is “unconditional”, some said “Love is a temporary madness”, some said “Love is chemistry”. When love turned BAD? hatred? argument? and heartbreak? Love is sad, Love is painful, Love is miserable, Love is resentment, Love is grudges, Love is anger, Love is tears, Love is suffering. Love can be better if …

Love is about forgiveness...

“There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love.”
Without forgiveness we can’t love. From the perspective of spiritual reality, the statements “I love you but don’t forgive you” and “I forgive you but I don’t love you” are impossibilities. Love and forgiveness go hand in hand. We can’t have one without the other.

Do you love him/her? Is it hard to say “I’m sorry”? Is it hard to “forgive” someone you love so much hurting you? I have been into that situation before, I have been hurt badly, I can’t breath, I am suffering, with so much mixed feeling of emotion and tears, I hated him so much. What is wrong here?

Someone hurting me so much, leaving me with another girl. i'm in anger, i'm suffering, i can’t sleep, i can’t eat, i can’t work and i CRY. Can you see anything wrong here? i am suffering. i can think of thousand reasons why he left me, it’s because i aren’t that hot, sexy, compatible, caring, understanding on and on. With so many reasons that i can think off, why can’t i think of forgiving him. Is it so hard to forgive? i'm suffering.

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.” - Gandhi

Well, it is often when something went wrong, it is someone to be blamed, in any case, i might be the victim. i may say “How can he did that to me, I am being so nice to him? I am innocent, I cant forgive him forever”. i have STOP that negative feeling. True forgiveness is not something we do for another person. Only the strongest person can forgive, it’s not about them, it’ about me, it’s ALL ABOUT MYSELF, it’s about letting go the hurt and hatred that stop me from becoming happy again. When i forgive a person, doesn’t mean i was wrong or lose. i don’t do it for them, i don’t have to think of are they worth to be forgiven, i'm doing it for myself. Don’t let the people who hurt me so much stay in my heart and mind, they are not worth/eligible to be placed there. Stop being a prisoner because of someone mistakes. Stop them prolonging me to suffer. Please! Forgive and let go and feel good about it..

” If we really want to love we must learn how to forgive ” - Mother Teresa

i'm sick..

8.34am
office..

waaaaa..im feeling bad..
sakit leher, sakit pinggang, tak cukup tido, mengantok plus migrain..
smalam ntah pukul bape aku tetido dpn lappy..AGAIN! rasenye kali ke 3 dlm bulan ni kot..sedar2 da pukul 5.15am..gile laa..sakit pinggang, sakit leher sume ade..kepale pening mcm kene hempap batu tak payah cite laa..tu pun asgment tak siap2.
aiyooo..ni sume gare2 asgment..tak suke.tak suke..
kalau pikir PEMALAS yang kronik aku ni nak aje sambung tido..tanak pegi keje..tapi memandangkan minggu ni cuti awal so terpakse la lupekan niat murni aku nak ponteng pagi ni..kang sudahnye kene bebel ngn orang tua kat office nun..bole cair taik telinge wehh skali kalau die da stat bukak mulut..tak sanggop!
sakit kpale pikir exam lagik..bile nak lepas seksa ni..
tak mau pikir bende2 camni lagi daaa..
aghhhh..i mish my canon..sian die tade org gune die kan...
cepat laa siapkan asgment n abes exam..
saye da terseksa sgt2 neh...
nak pegi shoot...nak lepaks2..suda muak buat asgment..huuuu
;(

ouchhhh..my braces!!

12.00 pm
office..

haiyoooo..wayar kat besi braces saye tertanggal..
erkk..cuak..cuak..
mcm mane bley tetanggal nie..
rase tade pon mkn bende yg keras2..
pastu pagi tadi pon berus gigi gune berus yg same..oral B very soft lagik..
menggelabah call dr zarin bgtau..
phewwwww..nasib baik doc ckp kalu tak menganggu sgt, its ok..tp kalu besi kecik2 kat gigi tu mcm goyang, cepat2 jumpe die..
thx doc! eheee..giler cuak..
kalau pi jumpe doc zarin nanti mesti die bantai gelak..
hahahaha..

L.I.B.R.A.R.Y

8.11
14.3.2010

hari ini dalam sejarah.. ;)

i've spent a whole day at library today!!
giler laaa..tak penah2 aku stay kat lib lbey dr 2 jam sbelom ni okeh..
well b4 aku mmg allergic giler masok library..mesti mate otomatik rase berat n menguap secare tibe2..ahahahahahaha..tapi disebabkan ade 2 lg asgment yg terpakse aku siapkan, terpakse laa..at least kalau tak siap sume pun asgment tu, aku kene buat 1 asgment..WAJIB! kalau tak. im dead! time is running..asgment tak siap2..dgn tak study ape2 pun untuk mid term exam..adooii..nampaknye azam utk cecah pointer 3 above tak kesampaian lah..huhuhuhu..
akhirnya, siap gak asgment jurnal aku..yes!! tgl satu je lg asgment..harap dpt siapkan b4 deadline ari sabtu nie...
erkkkk..malasnye nak study. ;(
hmm..da penat..nak mandi n get some rest..nak bace komik shin chan..(coz da penat belek jurnal law kt library tadi) hehehe.. ;)

B.R.A.C.E.S

Braces atau orang jawa sebut pendakap gigi merupakan aksesori yg semakin mendapat sambutan di kalangan remaja atau separuh remaja yang ingin menambah kecantikan gigi dan juga ingin membetulkan kedudukan gigi supaya lebih teratur..sungguh skema la ayat saya di atas..hehe

dan saya juga merupakan salah seorang pemakai braces
dan ramai juga la yg tanya saya kenapa la pkai braces
sbb gigi saya nampak ok..
tapi sebenarnya gigi saya jarang ckit..so tempoh saya pkai pn xlama..
bulan 12 nie genap la saya pkai braces nie setahun..huhu

so skit info psl braces nie

* Pendakap gigi atau nama saintifiknya, orthodontic braces atau brackets digunakan dalam bidang pergigian untuk membantu membentuk semula permukaan gigi yang tidak rata.
* kena penjagaan gigi yang agak rapi iaitu gosok gigi selepas mkn,bangun dan hendak tidur untuk elakkan makanan yg tersangkut membiakkan bakteria dlm mulut.
* menggunakan berus gigi yg special untuk berus celah2 gigi..dan juga ubat kumur
untuk elakkan mulut berbau..floss pn penting gak
* kena g follow-up untuk pastikan kedudukan gigi dah ader perubahan dan pastikan fulus yg mencukupi bila melawat doktor gig yek..
* kena gak mkn makanan yang seimbang dan berkhasiat
* semua di atas adalah dari pengalaman saya sendiri..hehe

f.u.c.k

FUCKED UP!!what I truly fucked up...
fucking liar.back stabber.hypocritos.womanizer.they're suckzzz..trust me..plastic girlzzz..copy cat

bosannnnn..

13.3.2010
saturday
7.54 pm

ujan baru je brenti...
eeee..tak besh laa arini..
asgment tak buat2..
idea tade..heee..geram..
nak pegi shoot cuaca tak mengizinkan..
tak beshnye..kalau mai ade mesti bole ajk die pegi shoot awal sikit sbelom ujan tadi..
ishh..bosannye..
aku bosannn..bosannn..bosann...

shoot lagiii..

location: tasik titiwangsa, putrajaya
model: akila, jemm, zack waklu

2nd wedding shoot..

location: tasik titiwangsa..

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa....garden wedding!
beshh..beshh.. thx once again wan.. ;)

my first wedding shoot.. ;)

location: sungai petani, kedah

outdoor shooting..

location: wangsa maju


1st time shoot gamba model..
wa cuak memule..
ape aku nak buat ni..nak setting camera camne ni..
jadik blur kejap..
nway, thx a lots wan.. ;)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend."

"Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an oppourtunity."
- Kahil Gibran

"Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rare
False friends are like leaves, found everywhere."
- Anoymous

to all my friends, i love u all..thx for being there when i need u.. ;)